My Oldest Diva is turning 5 in just 5 weeks! Where has the time gone?
I vividly recall laying on my bed and calling out to my husband in an embarrased panic that I had peed myself - and would need his help to clean up the mess! I had no contractions, no pain at all - so I did not think my water had broken! When I got up off the bed - GUSH! I knew this was not just my wicked bladder! My water had broken - it was 2 weeks early but she obviously was ready to meet the world! I waited for the pain but nothing came! I was worried - is it normal to have your water break but feel absolutely NOTHING?
Off we went to the hospital where I endured a Pitocin induced labor. I do not recommend it - oh the pain! I was seriously wishing I could go back in time to the pain free bliss when I felt nothing! :)
2 epidurals later (the first did not work on the right side of my body) I was completely numb! I could not move anything but my head! I was so worried I would not be able to push - how could I when I couldn't feel a thing? The nurses assured me my body would do what it was supposed to but I was doubtful.
My inability to feel made me exert too much force & boy did I ever tear (TMI - i know!) but hours later my darling baby girl arrived and one look at her just filled me with such love and awe (I made this perfect lil being - WOW!) that the process in which she arrived did not matter - she was worth that and so much more!
Now here we are almost 5 years later and I am filled with such love and awe at the sight of her each and every day! I am continually amazed that this wonderful lil person came from me (and the hubby of course - must give credit where credit is do!).
I love watching her grow into her own lil person - the good, the bad & the ugly, LOL! Yet a part of me wishes I could stop time - it seems to all be going so fast! Now I understand what my parents meant when they always told me that no matter how old I was, I would always be their little girl. It's impossible to look at this growing girl and not catch a glimpse of that little face that I first gazed down into on the day she was born.